Yabla

崩溃 bēngkuì

大 dà

崩溃 bēngkuì

就 jiù

完全 wánquán

不能 bùnéng

接受 jiēshòu

自己 zìjǐ

胖 pàng

I was shocked and couldn't handle myself being fat.

但 dàn

当时 dāngshí

其实 qíshí

我 wǒ

真 zhēn

的 de

已经 yǐjīng

是 shì

一 yī

个 gè

很 hěn

崩溃 bēngkuì

的 de

状态 zhuàngtài

But at the time, I was already in a state of collapse.

因为 yīnwèi

我 wǒ

怕 pà

我 wǒ

自己 zìjǐ

崩溃 bēngkuì

掉 diào

because I am scared that I will break down.

特别 tèbié

崩溃 bēngkuì

我 wǒ

都 dōu

怀疑 huáiyí

自己 zìjǐ

是不是 shìbùshì

自己 zìjǐ

不行 bùxíng

啊 a

I was very frustrated. I almost started to doubt my abilities. Maybe I couldn't keep it up.